Have you ever had one of those life-changing years that when it comes to an end, you look back and are like, “Huh, so that was a wild ride!”?
That was 35 for me.
The last 365 days were filled with every emotion you could imagine. Excitement as I planned our wedding, anger and frustration pointed at some unworthy characters I had kept in my life for too long…feeling elated one moment to overwhelming terrified the next after finding out we were expecting a baby…to the boogeyman in my head working overtime on more than one occasion. 35 was one wild ride.
As I begin my 36th journey around the sun, I wanted to take a look back at 35.
While 35 was definitely filled with some of, if not the, best moments of my life – there were some dark periods. Planning the wedding got to be extremely stressful at times, triggering my anxiety. But the darkest point came only a few months before the wedding.
After an ✌🏼 eventful✌🏼 bachelorette party, my bridal party was down a bridesmaid and my circle of friends was one less. I did some asking around in the many wedding related Facebook groups I was in, and it turns out – it’s quite common for certain friendships to not last through one of the two friends getting married. It could be jealousy, insecurities, bridezilla moments – there are a variety of factors that can come into play. And by quite common, I mean HUNDREDS of gals shared their friendship-ending stories with me. While it felt somewhat comforting to know I wasn’t necessarily alone in this situation, it was quite hurtful (physically, mentally, and emotionally) to go through what I went through. It’s obviously hurtful when any friendship comes to an end, but in the manner in which this one ended was traumatising to say the least. I found that the best way to get through tough times is to surround yourself with a support system of caring, encouraging people. I’m lucky to have that and while one friendship came to an explosive (literally) end, others were solidified and only grew stronger through the drama…and for that, I’m grateful.
…ok – now…onto the fun stuff!
Like I said, 35 was a WILD ONE!
Mike and I got engaged just before my 35th birthday. Then I jumped right into wedding planning which brought on all the wedding shows and Mike and I doing an engagement photo shoot. It was all wedding all the time, and for the most part – I loved it!
When Mike and I decided to do engagement photos, we knew that we didn’t want to do the standard engagement pics you normally see. We wanted to be silly and fun and US. So, we headed back to our old stomping grounds, filled the table with chicken wings and drinks and food and brought our Macho Man and Miss Elizabeth wedding cake toppers and took some of the funnest pictures we’ve ever taken. Then we headed to our first apartment that we lived in together and captured some more lovey shots.
I was also a guest on the Somebody Date Us podcast, which was a blast! Somebody Date Us is a podcast hosted by 3 single gals trying to find someone bearable to date. We chatted all about my dating disasters, and finding live in a hopeless place – Tinder. You can check out my episode here.
Another fun memory from my 35th year was doing a one-on-one shoot with our engagement and wedding photographer. I brought a couple of outfits I felt comfortable in, and we shot some intimate shots. I didn’t want to do a boudoir shoot, in my bra and panties – so I brought some alternatives. I never felt more comfortable in front of the camera! Chelsea is simply amazing at what she does and if you’re looking to do a boudoir shoot yourself – I highly recommend her! #notsponsored
About 2 months before the wedding, something just felt a little different…so, be be crass – I decided to pee on a stick. And well, lo and behold that bad boy turned positive before I even finished my business!
Holy shit. Holy shit. HOLY SHIT! WE’RE HAVING A BABY!
I’ve been sharing my pregnancy journey online, but one part I haven’t shared is that Mike and I had actually been trying to conceive for a very long time. (That’s a whole ‘nother post though) As the months went by, with negative results coming in over and over – it was getting more difficult to be optimistic. So when that positive test came back (and the many, many others we did within those first 24 hours) – to say we were ecstatic is an understatement! (Hence the many posts and pictures I share!) Now, here we are in month 6 and it’s still just as surreal!
Planning the wedding was A LOT of fun, but let’s be honest – it was also exhausting. Especially when you’re in your first trimester and feel like utter death every single day. But, somehow – I pulled through it and had the most perfectly imperfect wedding day. A lot of things didn’t go exactly as planned (that’s yet another blog post coming your way), but in the end – all that matters is that I married my best friend. I don’t remember much from the day, it all went by in a blur – but I do remember laughing A LOT.
Not long after our wedding, we headed out to Detroit for Mike’s annual baseball tournament and then off to Ireland for our honeymoon! Ireland wasn’t always the plan, but boy am I ever glad it ended up being the plan! Ireland was amazing. Stunningly beautiful and though our trip was short, we created lifelong memories.
35 was also the year I completed my Invisalign treatment and gained a new sense of confidence! There is no more hiding my smile behind a claw hand pose. It’s full-face smiles and just in time because, holy smokes – do I ever have a lot to smile about nowadays!
35 was filled with so many amazing moments and memories, so many more than I could possibly fit into a blog post.
…but I have a feeling that my 36th trip around the sun is going to be another one for the record books!